Last week we were in Michigan visiting my family so I really didn’t have time to sit down and write an update or even take an official photo. But now I’m 25 weeks, that’s so exciting!! It feels so far along but yet not too far yet. I love where I am right now! But I was just thinking how I have just over 2 months now to get everything done on my to-do list so I can spend the month of November just relaxing and not stressing and cooking and baking and nesting and all that good stuff, and possibly potty-training Elsa if I think she’ll be ready for it! 2 months is not a long time!!!
GENDER GUESS: Gender has been a big thing for me over the last week. I have in my mind that it’s a boy because of some of the differences in this pregnancy – not as much weight gain in my butt and hips yet, slow-growing leg hair (even though most places say it favors a girl, I didn’t have that with Elsa), belly getting so big so fast. So I keep thinking it may be a boy but I can’t let go of my dream for a second girl and to have two little girls running around together. I’m actually really considering finding out the gender around 30 weeks when we go for a 3D ultrasound, so if it’s a boy I can do my mourning of the dream of two little girls and then move on to get excited about and bond with the idea of a little boy, and all before the baby is born. It sounds so silly saying all this, how I really want a girl and would need a mourning period if it’s a boy, but I know how way over-emotional I was the first week and maybe two weeks after Elsa was born so I don’t know how I’ll be this time, and especially if it’s a boy. I may be totally fine and just immediately bond with a perfect little boy, but what if I’m not?? Actually over the last couple days the idea of a boy hasn’t been so bad to me as it was last week. I’ve remembered how little boys often are cuddlier than little girls, I think of my friends and acquaintances who have little boys and just adore everything about them. But then I also think how little boy clothes are nowhere near as cute as little girl clothes, how the boys will grow up to be not cuddly with their moms, how they’ll find girls and get married and not be nearly as close with us (usually) as daughters usually are. Of course so much of this comes from my own family and similar personal experiences, I know some sons who as adults stay really close to their parents. But it still isn’t the same I don’t think. And I’d have to eventually go through all Elsa’s clothes and start giving some away and that will be SO HARD!!! Anyway, I am really going back and forth on finding out the gender this time. I wouldn’t want to know right now, I like the wondering, but I’m thinking about maybe finding out in a few weeks. We’ll see how I feel between now and then.
BABY’S HOMEWORK THIS WEEK: Baby is working on it’s breathing and is making breathing movements with its lungs. Its brain has also developed enough now that it shows a response to touch and light, and can now hear sounds outside just my belly.
BABY’S SIZE: Around 1.75 pounds and it’s about 13.5 inches long from head to heel. It doesn’t weigh much so would be teensy skinny in there but it’s pretty long already!
BABY LOOKS LIKE: I’m always amazed that it’s such a real baby inside me already!
BELLY PHOTO: I never think these photos really show just how big it looks, I swear it always looks bigger to me.
WEIGHT GAIN: I think I’m now around 20 pounds. I’ve gained a lot in the last couple weeks. And the baby isn’t even 2 pounds yet so I have another probably 5-7 pounds that will just be the baby, let alone I know I’ll gain more weight just on my own. My belly has grown another half inch too I think. It’s looking more and more round all the time now!
SYMPTOMS: The biggest symptom that I’ve had over the past week has been feeling lightheaded and slightly nauseous sometimes. It happened twice on vacation and I needed to kneel or sit down to feel better, standing made it keep getting worse. Yesterday morning it happened again and I’d keep kneeling and then standing up and quickly doing something (getting Elsa’s food, cat’s food, food for me) until I could just sit. And today it happened again but lasted much longer. I went upstairs to take a shower and immediately when getting upstairs I started feeling it and sat down on the bed for awhile while Elsa played on the bed, and I laid down a little, and then I decided to try for the shower anyway but I ended up spending almost all of the shower either kneeling or crouching cause standing up made me feel sick right away. I put my lotion on while sitting, and we went downstairs (thankfully Elsa can go down on her own now) and I sat for a long time while we snacked and then it was mostly gone. I haven’t figured out yet exactly when it happens and what triggers it cause especially one of the times we had just eaten a big meal. I hope it doesn’t keep getting worse cause right now I’m even nervous to leave the house after this morning.
I’m having many more aches and pains over the last week or two as well. Sometimes when I first get up after sitting it’s SO tight and painful way down low, like right above my vagina, that I can hardly walk until it loosens up. And a couple times after I’ve peed or pooped it’s just been so strongly achy down low in my abdomen that I have to just sit or lay until it passes, which can be 5-10 minutes. I think my back is getting achy sometimes too after sitting in one position for too long. And I can’t twist my body the same as I could before without it being really uncomfortable. Bending over and standing from sitting on the ground and even rolling over in bed are getting progressively harder. And I sometimes miscalculate how big my belly is when walking by things or opening things and sort of hit my belly. I’ve noticed also that standing at the sink isn’t fun anymore now in the kitchen, cause my belly sticks out far so I have to lean over a bit to get to the water and just that tiny bit of leaning that’s required is uncomfortable and straining. So I wonder how uncomfortable it will be in a couple months!
My feet still haven’t swelled but definitely sometimes when I’m sitting a lot I can feel them getting slightly puffier and strained so I need to make sure to keep my feet up a lot when sitting. My belly button is a total flatty and very stretched already, and sensitive to the touch. Oh and over the past three days I’ve been really sleepy and tired – I’ve slept so well at night, it’s been so hard to get up in the morning, I’ve wished for a morning nap, I’ve wished for or sometimes taken an afternoon nap with Elsa, and I’m very tired early in the evening. It feels really similar to how I felt during first trimester. But it shouldn’t be happening until third trimester and I’m still 3 weeks away from that!! It makes me really wonder if this baby will come early like Elsa since everything seems to be happening faster this time.
Also, I’m starting to get the nesting bug. I want to bake, I want to make soup stock and freeze it, I want to make chili and freeze it, I want to bake cookies and cupcakes and find recipes I like and then freeze some batter. I want to get the baby’s room painted and Elsa’s room looking perfect (in less than two weeks we’re moving her to her big girl bed so I need to get a few more things for that as well). I want to have the basement done so I can start organizing toys better and set up a craft area down there and an art wall and figure all this stuff out. I want to meet with Jody’s designer friend who will help give me ideas for our terrible living room area and maybe dining room. I want the house to be prettier and more complete. I want J to save a lot of money on this garage he’s building so we have more to go towards the house itself which I care way way way way way way way way more about. I want to get ready for Christmas already. I want to get a nice fall sweater and some shoes I can wear even when pregnant. I want to get Elsa all set for fall and winter clothes. I need to have more money to do a lot of this.
CURRENT MOOD: I don’t like the new lightheadedness that I’ve been getting. I don’t like feeling tired already three weeks before I even hit third trimester. I’m worried about having only 2 months plus a little over a week to get most everything done that I want to do, including a lot of things that J will need to do like painting the room, helping build furniture, finishing the basement, finishing at least part of the basement bathroom, etc. And I need to have some late nights to get photo stuff done and go through all the photos from the past year and even Elsa’s first year so I can put albums together (and I’m so picky and so indecisive so I know it will take a long time). And I’m stressed about whether to find out the gender and whether it will be good or whether I’ll regret it. I’m leaning more towards finding out though, at least right now, but still maybe just 65/35 towards finding out – and I will only tell a tiny handful of people if we do find out, I still want it to be a surprise for everyone else! And I’m nervous about having so many aches and pains already. I have an actual list to talk to my OB about on Thursday morning at my next appointment, and I’m looking forward to when I can start seeing him every two weeks instead of every four. And I’m already a little nervous that something will happen so I can’t get an epidural, and I need to start doing kegels again, and also start seeing a chiropractor to get all straightened out for labor.
CURRENT FAVORITE FOOD OR CRAVING: Not much. I’ve craved my chocolate milk a bit over the past few days but that’s all I can think of.
DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS: I have my next OB appointment in two days. I’m definitely looking forward to it, to hearing the heartbeat, to knowing all is okay, and I think the baby is big enough that he’ll try to feel it’s position and I’m curious to know if I’m right cause I think a week ago it moved to definitely being head down. I sometimes feel a lot of pressure down there, and I feel lots of movements low which I think are the hands and maybe even hiccups, and I feel some occasional movements higher up which I think are the feet.
BEST MOMENT OF THE WEEK: I haven’t really had a best moment this week, just whenever I feel lots of movements from the baby which is usually in the evening after Elsa goes to sleep and I’m sitting on the couch. Those are the best baby moments cause I get excited and I feel like everything is all okay since I’m feeling good movements.
WHAT I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO: My OB appointment in two days, and being 27 weeks so baby has a 50/50 chance of survival if it were born, and to having the 3D ultrasound so I can see it and bond and also stop worrying about it having a super flat forehead and not being cute (hopefully the ultrasound will show a cute baby!)!
WHAT I’M MISSING: I’m a little bit missing looking skinnier and feeling not so heavy and like it’s hard to move. But that’s only a little bit cause really I’m so happy to be pregnant and I love being pregnant and I love how I am now – big perfect belly and obviously pregnant but not near the end yet so I still have a long time left to be pregnant! I get REALLY sad when I think that this may be the last time I’m pregnant. It’s such an exciting and miraculous time and knowing all the changes my body is going through to grow this little person moving inside me is so humbling and absolutely amazing!