I’m almost to the third trimester!! That’s so exciting!! And crazy cause somehow this pregnancy seems to have gone so fast, or at least so much faster than my first one! Yet three months still seems like a long time. Although then I remind myself that I want to be all ready a month early so that means just two months left to get everything done.
Today I’m feeling like I really want to DO things. Big things. And cross big things off my list that will take a lot of time to do but I want them done NOW. Like picking all the photos from the last year and designing photo books for Christmas presents for the grandparents. And ordering a canvas for my parents. And ordering a puzzle for my grandma. And ordering Christmas presents for my grandpa (I’m going to get him something from Norwex I think, some anti-bacterial something). And buying a sewing machine and learning to sew. And finding a perfect Halloween costume for Elsa. And putting together all Ikea furniture we bought. And picking a paint color for baby’s room and buying it and having J paint it ASAP. And cleaning my office. And cleaning Elsa’s playroom that’s really a junk room right now. And having the basement finished. And cleaning the house again. And finding places to put everything that’s just laying around. And finding an outfit for family/maternity photos (that won’t be done for at least a month). And figuring out what to get J for Christmas. And so many other things. Instead for now I’m going to type this update cause that’s also on my list and I can cross that off. And maybe then I’ll clean my office if Elsa is still asleep.
GENDER GUESS: I feel like it’s a girl. I felt that way early on, then in the middle I didn’t know and hoped so much for a girl that I worried it was a boy. Now I’m still hoping it’s a girl but I’m feeling that if it’s a boy I’ll be fine and bond with that idea pretty quickly. But I still feel more like it’s a girl, and when I take online gender prediction tests they all say girl, with varying levels of probability. I feel like my belly is shaped more like a basketball than a watermelon, like with Elsa. And I’m craving more sweet foods like sherbet ice cream which is the same as with Elsa. So I just feel like it’s a girl. But then of course I instantly second-guess that feeling! I more want a girl, but I’m happy to report that a small part of me actually hopes it’s a boy. So I feel like I’ll be fine either way!
BABY’S HOMEWORK THIS WEEK: Baby’s brain is developing more tissue and forming grooves on the surface, and it is moving into a more regular sleep schedule now. It’s lungs are also continuing to form and are formed enough to possibly be able to work with help if born. If it’s a boy, his testes are migrating into his scrotum, and if it’s a girl, her clitoris is beginning to form.
BABY’S SIZE: About 14-15 inches long and weights about 2.25 lbs. It’s so big already!
BABY LOOKS LIKE: I think this may be the position of the baby right now, too!
WEIGHT GAIN: Over 20 pounds now. :( I think I’m around 22 pounds. And belly grew over an inch in the last two weeks.
SYMPTOMS: This last week was pretty good actually. I definitely felt stretching in my belly often as the baby and belly are growing. And sometimes the extreme pain right above my vagina area when I stand up, usually in the evening. I’ve been a little tired and more lazy in the last week, sometimes just having no energy at all. My acid reflux is definitely getting worse. I need to go out tonight and get a new bottle of tums, even now I feel it and it’s getting more and more uncomfortable.
Other stuff that is sort of symptoms. I can’t remember if I talked about my boobs two weeks ago or if I noticed it since then. At night when I take off my shirt and I’m moisturizing everywhere, I noticed that my boobs look like something out of a horror film – I see every single vein in them, and in my chest and running down my arms and even in my belly. It’s so freaky and it really shows up in the dim light!!! And I also realized a few days ago that I can’t see my vag area at all anymore for shaving. No more leaning to the side or somehow pushing my belly one way or the other, now it’s all just on feel!
I’m feeling much bigger movements from the baby now! Sometimes seeing my belly move, or seeing a big hump appear on my belly and have it be extremely lopsided while I feel lots of pressure! I THINK it’s the baby’s bum that is doing that, it’s sort of on the middle to top of my uterus and on the left side. But today I was just feeling kicking really high up on that side, so I’m trying to figure out exactly how this little baby is facing right now!
CURRENT MOOD: Pretty good! I’m so happy to be 27 weeks, and almost in the 3rd trimester. I’m calm right now about the baby being fine and so excited for the 3D ultrasound in 2 weeks and 1 day! I’ve decided to find out the gender at it. This was a MAJOR internal debate!! J adamantly didn’t want to know the first time but this time he’s fine either way with what I prefer. I LOVED not knowing the first time and wondering and anticipating, and that moment when Elsa came out and J said tearily and so excited “honey, it’s a girl!” – words can’t describe how much that memory means to me. But a) if it’s a boy I kind of feel like I need to know and prepare for that mentally and get excited about it, and b) this became the biggest factor – I feel like I need this sense of control. I have so much anxiety about how it’s all going to work this time with having a toddler and a newborn, how Elsa will adapt, how I’ll feel, what the baby will be like personality-wise, how I’ll deal with the guilt of not feeling like I’m giving either of them enough time, how my mood will be, how I’ll get used to taking two kids out of the house in the middle of winter to get us out of the house and get Elsa some changes of scenery at least every couple days. Just so many unknowns and so many anxieties. So when I think about knowing the gender this time it actually calms me down because I can have the room perfect, I can have all the proper baby items for the first couple months washed and folded in the dresser, I won’t need to go out to the store for anything, I can bond with the idea of whichever gender it is, I can feel as prepared as possible beforehand, etc. So, I have finally made the decision to find out. It will be different of course and a different experience, and I think it will probably make labor less exciting since we know. But emotionally it’s what I want to do this time. And now that I’ve made the decision, I absolutely can’t wait to find out!! And to see the baby’s little face and hopefully see a cute little baby and fall in love with its little face! We’re having the ultrasound when I’m 29 weeks so I know the baby won’t be really pudgy yet but hopefully it will be okay.
I’m also excited to see the baby then because I have these fears right now that the baby is huge, and maybe too huge or abnormally huge, and then I think that will make it be ugly too and deformed. My doctor just under two weeks ago told me that I’m measuring large and he seemed shocked at how big my uterus was, how high up in my belly it is already. I’d wondered myself if it was big cause it seemed early to be feeling the baby kicking so high up already. So I was really concerned, and of course when I got home I googled measuring big and reasons and found all these scary possibilities along with the general “or it could just be a big healthy baby”. I had a terrible day that day crying tons and sure the baby was going to be deformed or something wrong with it. The next day I felt better, but I’ve still had these little fears inside. I’m feeling mostly better and fine these days, but it’s still there a little. So I really am anxious to see this baby, to hear that it’s somehow in the normal range as the baby moon people can sort of gauge based on all the babies they see, and I’m anxious to see its little face and hopefully see a normal little baby and hopefully it will be relatively cute. And yes now I can’t wait to find out the gender!!!!
CURRENT FAVORITE FOOD OR CRAVING: Nothing strong, but when we’ve gone for ice cream I’ve wanted sherbet flavors. And I feel like it’s been awhile since I’ve really felt satisfied by a meal of any kind, or snack of any kind. Yes it satisfies my belly, but nothing ever seems really perfect or just what I wanted. I don’t even know what I would have if I could have anything right now, nothing seems perfect.
DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS: My next doctor appointment isn’t for another 3 weeks still. I’m going to call and ask if I can come in early, like next week, and do the glucose test and thyroid test instead of waiting for when I come in – since I’ll be 30 weeks then and it seems a little late for that, and I’d rather my doctor has my test results already at the next appointment. And next anything baby appointment is on Thursday, Sept 20 to see the baby in 3D and find out the gender!!
BEST MOMENT OF THE WEEK: The big strong feelings I’ve felt in the last few days of baby moving, and seeing my belly move or be pushed out on the outside!
WHAT I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO: 3D ultrasound in just over two weeks!!!
WHAT I’M MISSING: Probably little things mostly like looking good, feeling skinny, not having a big bum, and having more energy. But I’m feeling good mostly! Although starting to get nervous about how hard it will be to lose the baby weight this time, and when I’ll start working out and how I’ll manage to fit that in. I don’t want to spend the whole next summer feeling terrible about myself though like last summer. This time I would reeeeeeallly love to feel like I’m in pretty good shape by the time summer clothes season is here, so I’ll have to start working out and eating right I’m thinking 2-3 months after the baby comes.